No Ordinary Love
October 25, 2017
"I gave you all the love I got
I gave you more than I could give
I gave you love
I gave you all that I have inside
And you took my love
You took my love
Didn't I tell you
What I believe
Did somebody say that
A love like that won't last
Didn't I give you
All that I've got to give baby "
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| photo: Staci Marie Photo, MUA: Pose Artistry |
Break ups are super shitty. I have never opened up about one on a blog before now. Guess there's a first time for everything! Some of the greatest pain I've ever felt is loving someone you KNOW is not right for you. I mean you know so deeply that your own conscious is like GIRL!!! I'm intuitive, yet my heart wants to believe in the good in people. My brain says face the facts, but my heart leads me into all sorts of painful situations. I'm not going to dwell on the pain, but yet on the many lessons I'm taking from it. Love is such a beautiful and powerful, intangible thing when it happens between the right people. The right love is force. I'm going to give you some introspection on what I NOW know after loving and giving of myself to the same person for close to 4 years:
Love Lesson 1 : What you allow will continue. EVERY. SINGLE.TIME. You set the precedent, the groundwork, the expectation for how you want to be treated by your partner.
Love Lesson 2: Don't let your unhappiness turn you into someone you are not. IF your relationship/partner is not helping you to be the best version of yourself and live your very best life..."you needa CUT IT!"
Love Lesson 3: The kids are aware. Kids pay attention to your relationships and interactions with others. They are ALWAYS watching. Make sure that the relationships you have with others (especially romantic) set the tone for the way your child(ren) will see relationships in a positive light and will hopefully go on to emulate as they get older.
Love Lesson 4: You can NOT give from an empty cup. Self care and then everyone else care. You can't give of yourself what you literally don't have to give. Fill your cup and keep that baby full until you have enough to share with those who deserve it the most.
Love Lesson 5: Be with someone who lifts you up. Mentally, physically and emotionally. Be a positive force in their lives, but most importantly be GETTING that in return. What good is all the positive energy you're sharing with someone and the positive force you're being for them if they can't or won't reciprocate?
Love Lesson 5: Be with someone who lifts you up. Mentally, physically and emotionally. Be a positive force in their lives, but most importantly be GETTING that in return. What good is all the positive energy you're sharing with someone and the positive force you're being for them if they can't or won't reciprocate?
Love Lesson 6 : If a man can't give me that 90s R&B, weak in the knees, Anthony Hamilton "The Point of It All", makes my heart skip a beat, makes me want to be the queen to his king, wife to his husband, buy a house and have a whole few more babies, a dog, cat, makes me wanna take him home to meet my mama and 'nem, putting up with my moods and quirks, oh i think that I found myself a cheer-lead-er, enjoys giving massages, listens to my poetry, always thinking of me first and then himself, wants to raise a stepson, writes lyrics about me, tells me I'm beautiful every day, wants to build a future, yin to my yang, willing to walk to the ends of the Earth for me, showing AND telling kinda love.....I DON'T FUCKING WANT IT! If a man is not willing to do that and more....#ByeFelipe. I already know what I have given to men who didn't deserve it, I can only imagine what I can give to someone who gives me REAL LOVE.
Until again,
Bougie Beauty Babe
Turning 8 is Great!
October 7, 2017
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| My handsome boy. I just love his eyes and his sweet soul. <3 |
I can't believe that my little baby will be 8 years old on October 16. I definitely feel like he just got here. I remember my pregnancy with Liam and the moments leading up to his birth so clearly! Although at the time I'm writing this his birthday is a little over a week away, in true bougie fashion I had some pictures taken of him and me.
He was long overdue for some portraits and it had been almost four years since we had pictures done together. I'm so excited to have these memories captured on film. Life with my Liam is beautiful. I wouldn't trade any of it for the world.
So without further ado, here are some favorites from our shoot! Enjoy :).
Until again,
Bougie Beauty Babe
Life & Death
September 1, 2017
It has been a cool 2 months since my last blog. For that I apologize. When I tell you that life has thrown me some curve balls....I'm in the throes of it rett nah! I'm going to just jump right into the heavy hitting stuff:
My friend Justin Wilson passed away July 6. I had known him for a whole 13 years. We even worked together for a couple years before he had a stroke that not only harmed him, but made him stop doing work that he loved. But he bounced back! He was stronger than ever. Funny and sarcastic and annoyingly honest and always and bout to embark on the new chapter of his life as a husband and stepfather.
He was always there for a good laugh, a shoulder to lean on, a good time and ready to have your back if any shit popped off. I was happy for my friend. I was rooting for my friend. I was ready to accompany him on that journey. He's gone entirely too soon. It was ridiculous and surreal to stare at him in that casket. To see that same shit eating grin he was always wore. To realize I would never see him alive again Rest easy friend. Until we meet again.
My sista-friend Alicia Williams passed away Sunday, August 6 and I'm still reeling and trying to process the emotions from that. I loved this girl. She was positive, real, beautiful, talented. She truly inspired me. Our calls and texts/messages were literally like hype sessions lol. I literally felt like I could take over the world after talking to her and really find my niche catering to women AND people who look like me.
She encouraged me in my educational/business endeavors and she bounced ideas off of me. She was an introvert to my extrovert and I learned to adapt in a way that didn't drain all her damn energy lol. I can truly say I am blessed to have had her in my life for the short 3 years that we knew each other. She is a loss not only to those who knew and loved her, but also to our local makeup artist community at large.
I'm so glad she's no longer suffering nor bothered with these worldly problems, but that doesn't lessen the blow.
Until next time y'all,
Bougie Beauty Babe
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| Me, Justin & Justin's Mom at her bday party <3 |
My friend Justin Wilson passed away July 6. I had known him for a whole 13 years. We even worked together for a couple years before he had a stroke that not only harmed him, but made him stop doing work that he loved. But he bounced back! He was stronger than ever. Funny and sarcastic and annoyingly honest and always and bout to embark on the new chapter of his life as a husband and stepfather.
He was always there for a good laugh, a shoulder to lean on, a good time and ready to have your back if any shit popped off. I was happy for my friend. I was rooting for my friend. I was ready to accompany him on that journey. He's gone entirely too soon. It was ridiculous and surreal to stare at him in that casket. To see that same shit eating grin he was always wore. To realize I would never see him alive again Rest easy friend. Until we meet again.
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| me and Alicia...also work on me by Alicia #PoseArtistry |
My sista-friend Alicia Williams passed away Sunday, August 6 and I'm still reeling and trying to process the emotions from that. I loved this girl. She was positive, real, beautiful, talented. She truly inspired me. Our calls and texts/messages were literally like hype sessions lol. I literally felt like I could take over the world after talking to her and really find my niche catering to women AND people who look like me.
She encouraged me in my educational/business endeavors and she bounced ideas off of me. She was an introvert to my extrovert and I learned to adapt in a way that didn't drain all her damn energy lol. I can truly say I am blessed to have had her in my life for the short 3 years that we knew each other. She is a loss not only to those who knew and loved her, but also to our local makeup artist community at large.
I'm so glad she's no longer suffering nor bothered with these worldly problems, but that doesn't lessen the blow.
Until next time y'all,
Bougie Beauty Babe
2017: Month 6
June 7, 2017
Happy June!
While I may be currently failing at blogging, let me be
clear that I’m making strides in other aspects of life lol! It’s been 5 weeks
since I started my new full time job working for an awesome newer retailer and
I love it. I have also come to the realization of quite a few things during
that time. While I love beauty and skincare, retail is not my forever
destination. I seek a life of more autonomy and being able to create and govern
my own schedule. While retail DOES offer some flexibility, bending to the whim
of every holiday for capital gain is not my speed anymore. In saying that, I’m
not knocking my current company or any other retailer because they are all
there for the same end goal: to make money. What I value more is time and
scheduling freedom and the ability to continue to climb the salary ladder.
So what’s on the horizon for the Bougie Beauty Babe? Nursing
school. I start the 3 semester program at BCTC this fall for the next 3
semesters (graduation is December 2018) and will then spend another 3 semester
in LPN to RN bridge (looking at Spring 2020) and THEN begin work in on an ADN
to MSN bridge with the end goal being a Master’s degree in Nursing. That is where I’ve always wanted to end up
since this journey began. With consecutive school (i.e. not nan break – points
if you caught the Trick Daddy reference lol), that should put me at finishing
school sometime in the next 4ish years. Seems a bit far off, but that’s
errythang! 3 nursing degrees and the ability to work as a Nurse Practitioner.
Liam and I are challenging ourselves to read several times
a week and also workout! It’s not going quite as well as I’d like, but he’s
helping me stick to my guns 😊. My
next weight loss goal is to lose about 35 lb. From there I will have about 60
lb to go to get to my final goal weight. It seems much more doable in 30 lb
chunks. I will be doing at least one more round of hCG diet, probably 2.
I’m back on the part time job circuit. In my quest to reduce
debt and eventually be debt free, there was really no other solution. Since
buying a car and taking on a car payment, it was the only way I could reach my
goals. I’m going to try and work all I can while school is out. Once August
hits, it will be a new ball game. I have 3-4 smaller debts I am specifically
targeting to pay off by the time August 14 hits (1st day of classes).
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| Me & Liam after my friend and MUA Alicia Williams of Pose Artistry did me up <3 |
On another equally important and positive note, my hair is growing and my face is glowing! Lol Get into this lenff!!!! I may have finally mastered this natural hair life! My hair feels the best it has in a while, I need a trim, but otherwise I have no complaints! So tell me what's going on in your first half of 2017!
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| When your skin is outchea glowing and your hair is outchea growing lol |
Until again,
Bougie Beauty Babe
Skin On Fleek
May 4, 2017
I have been trying to be much more conscious of my body and how to better myself mentally, physically and spiritually. Since ending the hCG diet at -18 lb, I have discovered a lot about what my former diet was doing or NOT doing for me. Dairy and breads have to be extremely limited or they GOTTA GO completely! I'm not quite ready to release them yet lol, but seeing the change and results in my skin and in my level of bloat/inflammation, that day is coming soon.
Now that I have been off of hCG for a full week and introduced some dairy and a few grains back into my diet, my skin is giving me a BIG middle finger. It's not about this life and I have had texture and inflammation galore. I started my new job April 22 and have been introduced to many new cosmetics and skincare lines. One that currently has my heart is Tata Harper.
Her line is 100% natural, 100% non toxic and 100% effective. Baaabbyyy! 
When I tell you that from using the products only 3 times of the past day and a half I have physically seen and felt the texture difference and brightening of my face, I'm NOT lying. Which brings me to my next point. The price point is about to blow my Bougie budgetin' ass out the water lol.
When I tell you that from using the products only 3 times of the past day and a half I have physically seen and felt the texture difference and brightening of my face, I'm NOT lying. Which brings me to my next point. The price point is about to blow my Bougie budgetin' ass out the water lol.
For the three products I need: purifying cleanser and cleansing oil, hydrating essence and moisturizer - before my employee discount: $300+. I'm sure y'all know when I realized how much it would be, my soul left my body lol. But now that it has re-entered and is back amongst the realm of the living, I truly believe it will be money well spent.
I always choose to spend my money on skin or body because I want to look good without makeup and eventually look good AF naked lol. I figure since the canvas (my face) needs to be clear, it makes more sense to spend $ on skincare...That's my splurge. I don't buy designer bags, clothes or shoes...I buy bomb ass skincare!
So in a world of material things that function as accessories, TREAT YO' SELF. Spa treatments, skincare, vacations...treat yourself to things that are tangible...that yield visible results. Get your skin on fleek and take of the world.
Until again,
Bougie Beauty Babe
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